I have not been in the holiday spirit at all. I didn't even feel like I wanted to go to my family's Christmas party this year and I ALWAYS look forward to that. Well, I did end up going and I had a good time with my family as I always do, but overall, I still feel as if we weren't "enjoying" ourselves like we should have been. We did laugh, drink, eat, and be merry but it all felt staged somehow. I think it was because we are all still really missing my grandma so that kind of hurt our hearts to know that she couldn't enjoy this
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Before I write about what I really want to talk about, I just wanted to say that this does not feel like Christmas Eve to me. I didn't even realize that Christmas was this weekend. It just came so fast and I'm not really in the spirit truth be told... Now, back to what is really on my mind... I am so in love with the song by the late David Ruffin, by the title of "Walk Away from Love." The song is an oldie but I am a sucker for his vocals and the sweet melody that plays along as he sings his heart out. It always puts me in
I blogged about my shitty life the other day and about how everything just seemed to be falling apart as it always is. I forgot to mention a few positives. I'm working on less negative self-talk and working towards being more openly optimistic so I'll try it here first. I did actually enjoy meeting with my intern-therapist-trainee. He gave me a lot of support and suggested that I join a grief support group which I think I might actually check out. I got the STOP class paid for and Rodney is out of my life for good so I
I think I had came across this article and that is what made me want to write this post... The article was about Nikko Jenkins and if you are from Omaha and know the story, then you know that name. Well, you don't have to necessarily be from Omaha to know his name. It was a pretty big story when it came out so you should look that up if you are unsure of who I am talking about. Anyways, I was talking with my husband about how I had his run in with him at my job years ago. I told him about the incident the night it
Here is the latest update in my shit show life: my period FINALLY stopped after almost 2 long months of torture, I met with my therapist (who is actually an intern in training, still cool though), I got a speeding ticket (asshole Rodney lied again about helping with the STOP class but fuck him as always), my pelvic ultrasound came back normal, and I get started back on birth control pills (after 7 years of being off). I'm sorry if that was just TMI for some of you but it is what it is. Good news is that my best friend is back in
I love you so much. I hope that when you read my blogs, you know that they are for you, with no doubts or questions that they are for anyone else. You have been my rock for so long and I don't know what I would do if you were not in my corner, always checking in on me, and bringing me back to reality when I feel as if my feet have left the ground and my mind has drifted into my daydreams. Through all of our trying times, you still manage to maintain the biggest piece of my heart and it never fails. You are my
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About the AuthorI got the idea to create a blog in December 2014 on a random type of day.Writing has always been therapeutic; the only way I could communicate clearly, in actual words instead of struggling to unscramble the swirl of images, metaphors & analogies that is my thought process. In short, Archives
February 2020
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