Maybe it's because of the passing of my grandma, but I am definitely feeling a change in myself. I think it might have to do with her passing that I've been more withdrawn and a little more hostile (in a good way, if that can be possible?), and I just feel like I think more clearly. I realized that I don't really care for the "friends" I have. I would very much rather be drinking a beer, hanging out with my family, not that I needed a reason to do or feel that way but I go to work and dread it and I see that I don't connect with any of the girls I work with. I just feel like I see so much more that I want for myself.Its been nice having "ME" time at home, and not stressed about going to go meet up with my friends or whatever. I realized that after my next trip, I decided to probably leave my job
Early in the morning on Feb 8th, my grandma passed away. It was peaceful and in her home, just the way she wanted. We all knew it was coming and she kept saying she was tired, but still, nothing can ever prepare anyone for death. It was about 4 something, almost 5 in the morning, and my sister texted me saying she had passed and to call mom. As soon as I was getting ready to call her, she was calling me and told me the news. All I could say was "WHY?". I went over there to see my baby one last time and my heart sunk. It felt like I had been
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About the AuthorI got the idea to create a blog in December 2014 on a random type of day.Writing has always been therapeutic; the only way I could communicate clearly, in actual words instead of struggling to unscramble the swirl of images, metaphors & analogies that is my thought process. In short, Archives
February 2020
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