Before I write about what I really want to talk about, I just wanted to say that this does not feel like Christmas Eve to me. I didn't even realize that Christmas was this weekend. It just came so fast and I'm not really in the spirit truth be told... Now, back to what is really on my mind... I am so in love with the song by the late David Ruffin, by the title of "Walk Away from Love." The song is an oldie but I am a sucker for his vocals and the sweet melody that plays along as he sings his heart out. It always puts me in my feelings whenever I listen to it, though. In the chorus, he sings "This time I'm playing it smart. I'm gonna walk away from Love, before Love breaks my heart." I can just sense and feel his pain as he sings these words and I realize how easy it is to relate the words and that's why I can feel it deep down in my soul. It's like you almost want to give up on love and walk away before it gets to that point of loving that person because that fear of them breaking your heart is there. We're all scared of falling in love because it is a constant gamble with your heart that you are unsure if you're willing to bet on. It's great when the love is returned but not everyone gets it right on the first try and you have to experience some heartache along the way until you do get it right and feel like you can finally share your heart with that other person who will love you unconditionally and won't break your heart like the others. I think about my past relationships where I thought I was so in love with my boyfriend at the time until we would break up and my heart would just fall to bits and I would cry for days and wonder where it all went wrong. I would wish, like the song says, that I could have walked away from the beginning if I would have known better. Love is a slow, seductive death. When it's good, it's GOOD, but when it's bad, it's BAD and all you have are the shattered particles, formerly known as your heart, to remind you of your grief and anguish.
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February 2020
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