I have just been so tired and I have been just drawing a blank as to what to write about on my blog site. As for an update on my daily life: I almost wanted to quit my job in the second week because I was so upset over something that I really should not have gotten so upset over. I am back to loving it so far but I do plan on trying to find a summer internship because I want to do something with my degree and gain experience for my future career. My moods are still kind of all over the place but I am definitely in a more
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Before I get on with this post, I wanted to just say that, as a kid, you don't really understand the concept of death. You don't really comprehend where that person went and why they can't come back. I think of adults who tell their kids their pet went to some animal farm or something (whatever lie to cover up that they are no longer alive) happy rather than break their little hearts. I mean, not every parent is like that but I just think back, when I was younger, I didn't know much about death. I didn't/couldn't fathom that, one day, my parents would someday get older and have to leave this earth. I just assumed we would all live forever, even though I was getting older, they were also growing older still... So, today was the year
I am going to keep this post short and simple because I need to get ready for bed so my slow ass can be up and ready for work in the morning... I keep thinking about how in 2 days it will be one whole year since my grandma, Bay, has left this earth for Heaven. I still very much deeply grieve for her and in 2 days I will be painfully reminded of that day I rushed over to her house to say my final goodbyes, though she had already passed on at that point, my family and I got to see her in her natural state, at home, in her bed. She looked like she was sleeping so peacefully but I knew she would never open her eyes again, yet somehow, I kept secretly hoping that maybe we had all got it wrong and she was going to wake up and
I wrote a post on Facebook today about how thankful I was for the changes that have been occurring and have occurred in my life, even with this past year of grieving and other serious dilemmas that transpired. The post read "lost some weight, got a new job, got on the right medication, finishing up my Bachelor's in 2 weeks, becoming more self-aware, and so much more. I didn't have much hope for this year but 2016 was so hard on my family that I just knew something had to give & strength would be our necessity & I'm just thankful for the changes." It was received with a lot of praise from people telling me they were proud of me and to keep up the good work. One woman (family friend) even told me she had been
I decided that I would try to start posting more about situations of a more positive nature so here's this now... I recently started a new job working in an office and I LOVE IT! I just started this past Monday and it feels really good to wake up and actually go to my place of employment and work a 9-5. It is a little hard getting up in the mornings just because I am such a night owl and had to change my sleeping habits at the drop of a dime but it's worth it. Once I am out of the bed and freshly showered then I am ready to
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About the AuthorI got the idea to create a blog in December 2014 on a random type of day.Writing has always been therapeutic; the only way I could communicate clearly, in actual words instead of struggling to unscramble the swirl of images, metaphors & analogies that is my thought process. In short, Archives
February 2020
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