I hate when a person will text or call you when something is going bad in their life or they want to use you for something. They don’t ever want shit to do with you until their piece of shit life is falling apart. Like, damn. Can you ever text or call when the sun is shining or when you’re
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1. If I could, I would walk around naked all day but I guess that is socially unacceptable... 2. My tattoos are a theme. They are things that go in the sky, such as a plane, stars, etc., and that theme came about because I am a day dreamer so I always have my head in the "clouds" (sky) and they are meant to be positive reminders that anything is possible if you can dream it, you can achieve it. 3. I used to do gymnastics when I was 5 years old, and I am still quite flexible, enough. I finally made me an InstaGram so go follow me, I will follow back @breighlashan. On another note, let me just say that I am not a bad person. Yes, I am married, I do like to drink and party sometimes, I am a flirt, I still like girls. Whatever else you think, I can't keep trying to justify who I am and what I am all about. I understand that NO MATTER who you are or where Back when I thought I was just so suicidal and couldn't go on in life anymore, I remember feeling such despair and hopeless. I remember telling anyone who cared enough to ask "Why?" what was going thru my mind. I felt like I was a burden on everyone, my family, what little friends I had. I didn't care if every single person told me they loved me or that their world would come crashing down if I were to end my own life so devastatingly, I wanted to give up. My captain from AIT would always tell me that suicide "All the street lights glowing, happened to be just like moments, passing, in front of me. So, I hopped in the cab and I paid my fare. See, I know my destination but I'm just not there, in the streets. I'm just not there, life's just not fair." - Kanye West (Street Lights) I think this is the perfect song to describe me and my life. I interpret the song to be about someone who knows what they want in life and where they want My self-esteem is like blowing a bubble with bubble gum. You can build me up so fast and show me off to your friends about how great of a bubble I am but once the bubble deflates then everything falls a part and you sit there for forever trying to blow another one as good as the first but it won't happen like I lost my virginity when I was 13 years old and I was in the 8th grade. Yes, I was young and you're probably sitting on your side of the computer screen, judging me, but I don't care because this is my story. If you don't like it, get off my page. Anyways... It was to an older guy, he was 18. Horrible, I know, but I guess I was trying to prove to myself I was ready? I don't know what was going through my head exactly. I had this "best friend" and her name was Katelin Price, I will never forget. I was so excited to be having this "wonderful You ever look at somebody and realize you don't know them as well as you thought? I feel that way sometimes. I figure that everyone lives some sort of double life, we are all constantly hiding a part of ourselves from the rest of the world. There's always some sort of mystery to the person we each present ourselves to be to other people. You will never How does anyone ever really know when they're in love? I find myself asking myself this question everyday and I still don't really have an answer. Google defines love as "An intense feeling of deep affection". Great. What does that even MEAN??? Merriam-Webster had a ton of definitions but none of them really resolved my issue either. Can anyone truly define love? Maybe there is no real definition, maybe its just a sense, something you feel. I wish I had taken my time trying to "fall in love" because it comes with a world of responsibility that no one ever expects to prepare for. I wish I could fast forward to 10 years from now to see how my life will be. I wonder what my lifestyle will be like, if I'll have a child by then, will I even still be married, will I be successful and have the kind of life I have always dreamed of. I know I should only really be focused on the here and now and things I can do to ensure my future will be my dream come true and I am |
About the AuthorI got the idea to create a blog in December 2014 on a random type of day.Writing has always been therapeutic; the only way I could communicate clearly, in actual words instead of struggling to unscramble the swirl of images, metaphors & analogies that is my thought process. In short, Archives
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