Please just hear me, Lord. I come to you to take this pain from inside me and remove such hate that I have been harboring inside my heart. I don't want to be angry anymore. I don't want to feel this hurt anymore. I don't want to be depressed and hopeless anymore. Everyday I wake up with this nagging sensation to dive off the deep end. I am struggling to keep my sanity, most days, before I do something I'll regret. I don't want to be regretful anymore. I just want it all to stop. I don't want to be vengeful or deceitful anymore. My emotions are all over the place and I can't stand it. I can't handle this stress and pressure anymore. Lord, please hear me. I know I haven't been the best but don't give up on me, please. I don't know what the future holds, only you do, please just show me the way. I love you and although I don't pray too often, I know you know where my heart is. Amen.
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One day we will all be nothing. We will continue carrying on about our daily, miserable lives until one day, we've vanished. I'm not talking about mass extinction, although we never know, that could be plausible. I mean, we all have to die one day. No one likes the idea of death and having to experience that grief of losing a loved one but it has to happen. Nobody can live forever, you might live to be really, really old but one day your number WILL be up. We can't escape our fates. I know I have already made a post similar to this but it came up again with some girls at work, I initiated this discussion actually... It started when I told them that I had taken these life and death calculator tests or whatever you want to call them. I started actually looking up how much alcohol it would take to get me intoxicated but somehow I ended up on these different sites, asking me to answer
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About the AuthorI got the idea to create a blog in December 2014 on a random type of day.Writing has always been therapeutic; the only way I could communicate clearly, in actual words instead of struggling to unscramble the swirl of images, metaphors & analogies that is my thought process. In short, Archives
February 2020
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