When I was in elementary school, there was this boy, Kerry, who had the BIGGEST crush on me. Throughout most of elementary, he was just so in love with me. I'm talking, his mom even knew about it and would always talk to me like I was already going to be her future daughter in law. Everyone knew and I thought it was so embarrassing. He was the sweetest thing. He was possibly the sweetest guy I had ever known back then and maybe even the sweetest guy I have ever known today. I remember he would always want me to be his valentine and to really just love him in the same way he felt towards me, but I
I think I am so excited for 2017 to be here. This year has been such shit for me. I lost two of my relatives, one naturally, and the other gunned down. I have this legal trouble that I have to go to court for soon. I just really have no aim for anything at the moment. My motivation has gone up and down and I fell off a little bit in school. I'm excited for a fresh start to come. I'll be graduated in February with my Bachelor's in Human Services and I am so ready to just start my journey into the professional world. I wish I could just
After reading into the NDE and reading about how the person gets a flashback of their life and all the encounters they've had with others, it got me thinking. I started thinking about I wonder what the feeling is like; to finally FEEL the impact you've ever had on anyone you have ever come across. I always hope people take away something from meeting me or even just from knowing me however long they've known me. I can think of one actual instance where I was actually a motivator and a positive influence on one of my friends. My friend, Netty, has always told me that I'm one of the main reasons he finally got his
I had started looking up what Heaven was like because I wondered what my brother could possibly be experiencing. This led me to research near-death experiences with suicide attempts. I was curious because I had attempted suicide before but had never gotten to the point where I slipped away, briefly, to get a glimpse of the "other side." From the accounts that I had read, I basically got a theme of what it was like for them until they were brought back to life, in their own body. I read, mostly, about how there was no Hell. They usually ended up in a place of darkness, complete and utter darkness. Their thoughts
I am going to miss having my big brother on earth with us but I am so happy for him. He gets to be in the most beautiful place, surrounded by nothing but love, and now he is free. He doesn't have to constantly look over his shoulder or deal with the stress of life anymore. My brother is probably celebrating with his mom, it's been a long 25 years without her so I know she was probably there, waiting for him with big open arms. It still breaks my heart in knowing what my brother had to go thru in his final moments and I just don't know why he had to leave this world in such a violent, hateful way but that's behind us now.
Today was my brother's funeral. I honestly was not pleased with it. It seemed really unorganized and one sided. It was a mess. I don't want to go into too much detail about it on here because it gets me fired up thinking about it. I do think that everyone, today, had good intentions but some things just came off as tacky and unnecessary. It was my brother's mom's side of the family that pretty much handled it and everything reflected everything about THEM, not my dad's side of the family. I think they tried to keep
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About the AuthorI got the idea to create a blog in December 2014 on a random type of day.Writing has always been therapeutic; the only way I could communicate clearly, in actual words instead of struggling to unscramble the swirl of images, metaphors & analogies that is my thought process. In short, Archives
February 2020
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