Since the last time I blogged, there have been SO MANY CHANGES that have been thrown my way/I've brought into my life. Some are just too personal for me to write publicly on(for the time being) but it's definitely taken a toll on me. I am a person that doesn't do well with change at all, really and, with all of these changes, I adjust the best I can daily. I have been slipping in and out of depression but if I just keep trying and taking on the day as it comes, which I don't always do with grace, then eventually I'll get to a better mental place. I've also been told, a lot lately, that I use "I" frequently and it annoys me because I have always been the type to put myself last in MANY things and they are right that I do need to practice "I" orientation in moderation but it feels like everyone is overlooking that other aspect of myself and I start feeling defensive about it. I want to be comfortable with saying "I" statements and I will learn how to do it modestly and moderately, but I don't want to feel penalized for it while attempting to meet that goal. Also, I have only NOW began my attempts to express myself confidently as a whole, after taking a backseat with my own feelings to others oftentimes, but I feel myself shutting back down because even "coming out of my shell" seems wrong... I just have to take it day by day and believe that there will be a breakthrough and I'll be where I'm supposed to be.
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About the AuthorI got the idea to create a blog in December 2014 on a random type of day.Writing has always been therapeutic; the only way I could communicate clearly, in actual words instead of struggling to unscramble the swirl of images, metaphors & analogies that is my thought process. In short, Archives
February 2020
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