I had started looking up what Heaven was like because I wondered what my brother could possibly be experiencing. This led me to research near-death experiences with suicide attempts. I was curious because I had attempted suicide before but had never gotten to the point where I slipped away, briefly, to get a glimpse of the "other side." From the accounts that I had read, I basically got a theme of what it was like for them until they were brought back to life, in their own body. I read, mostly, about how there was no Hell. They usually ended up in a place of darkness, complete and utter darkness. Their thoughts were communicated telepathically and that the "Hell" they experienced was usually caused by themselves because of their deep regret and inability to accept that they were worthy of being loved. They would see a flashback of their life playing before them and felt the impact they had left on anyone they ever encountered, whether good or bad. They would then find themselves pleading out about how they didn't want to be left in this darkness for eternity and a light would appear. There was blinding light that they could somehow withstand to look into and a voice telling them something. It would usually ask if this was a place they wanted to stay, or they'd be lifted out of the darkness and shown how life would be without them on earth. They would feel such peach and so much love that they didn't want to leave but then they would decide to return back to live a more fulfilling life on earth. That made me feel good to read their stories because it made me want to change my way of thinking and not be stuck in a place where my thoughts and feelings of unworthiness left me in a place where there was only darkness and other "lost" spirits who wallowed in their own self-pity. One day, when it is truly my time to go, I want to feel that peace and happiness and to be with my deceased relatives, reunited again. I can't wait to experience a place where I am free from all the hassles of reality but my time will come and I will be ready. For now, I have to work on my ways of thinking so I can really enjoy the life I have right now
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