When I was in elementary school, there was this boy, Kerry, who had the BIGGEST crush on me. Throughout most of elementary, he was just so in love with me. I'm talking, his mom even knew about it and would always talk to me like I was already going to be her future daughter in law. Everyone knew and I thought it was so embarrassing. He was the sweetest thing. He was possibly the sweetest guy I had ever known back then and maybe even the sweetest guy I have ever known today. I remember he would always want me to be his valentine and to really just love him in the same way he felt towards me, but I was so, so MEAN to him. I didn't know how to handle that kind of attention back then. He wasn't my type (not that I knew my type back then) and I just thought he was a little obsessed and weird over me. I still think his love for me was always a little weird but I definitely could have handled things way differently than I did. In my defense, I did tell him that I wasn't interested and I was only in grade school, but I still think I was so evil and hurtful to him. I wish I could go back and tell him how sorry I am and that I apologize for my actions towards him. I wish I could just give that man a hug and show him how much I have changed since then (I mean, that was grade school, of course I've changed). I'm sorry, Kerry, for all the negative things I said about you and how I treated you. You were just trying to handle these new found feelings you felt towards the opposite sex and I was just a scared, little girl that wasn't really concerned for your feelings. I hope that one day we will happen to bump into each other, somewhere, somehow, and we can laugh and talk like the real friends we were always meant to be and that you can find it in your heart to forgive me. You were always pretty awesome.
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February 2020
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