I know I barely write about my marriage but I think this is one where I will make an exception. I never wanted to talk about my marriage because I felt like I didn't have much to say about it. I wasn't the happiest, I didn't care too much that I was someone's wife, honestly. I love my husband but I put our marriage on the backburner because I just didn't want to worry about it and I just let it be. That wasn't right of me and it wasn't fair to my husband either. After a HUGE fight (the biggest one we've ever experienced together), it helped to put a lot of things back into perspective and I had to realize that this is not a game anymore. I can't be running around like I'm some "single lady" without any strings attached. I admit that during the fight, it kept crossing my mind that divorce was the best option but then I remember thinking that that was too easy. I am MARRIED, not DATING, and I am in this for the long haul, that means FOR BETTER OR WORSE. Things started off a little rocky and I definitely added insult to injury with my stunt but I owe it to myself, my husband, and this marriage to give it its best shot. I am trying and I will continue to try to the best of my abilities to be a wife my husband will be proud of. I married him for a reason and I can't let me trying to live in the past ruin my future. I hope it isn't too late for love....
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Rodney
11/12/2014 12:31:29 pm
YES!!! 25plus years
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