I had one disgruntled "customer," well reader, that was not too fond of my post about me being too honest for some people. He was one of the toxic, negative people I had cut out from my life. I hate that dude so much. Well, I try not to actually hate anyone, but some people just take you there that you start to reconsider if it's maybe not such a bad thing. However, I attempt to love all of God's creatures so I just settle for a strong dislike of this person. He definitely didn't like the truth I had prepared for him. I had pretended and lied to him for YEARS and I apologized from the bottom of my heart because it was wrong of me to do that. What he had me fucked up on was him saying "instead of saying 'too honest for some' you should start by being honest with yourself" or however that bullshit went. I thought it was hilarious. What pissed me off, though, is realizing that he had read my blog. I understand that my site is open to the public but what I can't stand about him is that he always has something to say about what I post, assuming everything is about him, when it never really is. THIS post is aimed at him but I'm hoping he fucking stays the fuck off of my shit. I almost unpublished my entire site because I haven't found a way to block him specifically, at least not yet. Nonetheless, I'm glad I stirred up a few emotions because that is how I felt when I wasn't speaking up for myself. Well, I don't know if I would compare it that way. I just felt silenced and angry that I wasn't taking enough initiative on my part and THAT'S being honest with myself. I am still working on my approach with people but I don't want to be that frustrated individual again and afraid of truly expressing myself. I'm not a shut-in and I have LOTS to say.
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February 2020
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