I'm out in California and this has got to be, like, my 10th trip here. I just love it here, love the weirdos, the weather, the struggle of it all. I have made some new friends out here and have made so many wonderful, young memories. Every time I come out here and everyone always thinks I'm a local and I say no but I do come a lot down here and mabe that shows. Even at home people inbox me, asking I'm still in Omaha or why don't I just move here. Well, I thought about this. It hit me like a ton of bricks and it made so much sense of why I just can't leave or feel the need to really want to make such a move. I like California because of everything I mentioned and because it's so familiar. I know, when I first came, it was something new and I didn't know ANYTHING about ANYTHING but that' was enough for me to get hooked and become accustomed to my favorite places that I love now. Anyways, this post is about why I don't move, well, really about why I am not a big traveler. I feel like the world is too big for me. I feel like that typical little fish who lives in a cute, little fishbowl in someone's living room but now I've been accidently mistaken for dead and flushed down the toilet into some big pond, alive and forced to get thru this world to get back home to my cozy bowl. I don't really know the piping system but you get where I'm going with this. For me, thinking about traveling seems stressful. I feel too small in this wide world to just be gone. I'm kind of not making sense but I understand what I mean. I guess I do need a nap so maybe this is rambling. I swear I meant for this to be some deep, poetic piece of work but now it's like a 10 year old struggling to get their thoughts out. Well, have a good day everyone!
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February 2020
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