In the past, when I used to date and had boyfriends, I used to think our relationship at the time was the best but then they actually turned out to be the ones I regret sometimes. I thought our relationship was going smooth and everything was going to be alright but then the breakups would come and I would be stuck there wondering where did we go wrong. I won't name names on here but there are 2 in particular that are crossing my mind as I write this... The first one, I thought we were so adorable. We worked together at my old job
in the grocery store, we hung out all the time, he would pick me up from school whenever my car was in the shop, I mean, it was little things but those little things were so precious to me. I was so happy, or so I thought. We broke up after a few months when he brought is "other" girlfriend up to where we both work. I seen them walk in together and I asked him was that his girlfriend, he said yes and I don't remember exactly what happened after that but it was over. I think he left that job after awhile too, it was the greatest thing ever once he was gone. I didn't have to see his stupid face anymore and the other workers finally stopped giving me that "poor girl, what-happened-to-their-relationship" stare. We've talked lately, ran into each other at the club (smh, another reason why I slowed down on drinking) and we text sometimes. He says he thinks of me...Pssshh, right. Nope, don't need that baggage again. On to the next "best" relationship I THOUGHT I had...He lived down the street from me. I had known him for awhile but we lost contact and then we finally met up again and it was like magic. Our relationship was wonderful. He walked me to and from work everyday (it was only a few blocks away, literally like a median between both of our houses), he was loving, the sex was amazing, he broke the spell my first love had over me, he "changed" me as a person somehow... We were only together a month but I felt so much and so much had happened. He broke it off with me. I don't remember why really but I was devastated. We ran into each other months later at these parties, had sex and finally went our own separate ways for quite some time. Present day, we are actually good friends now and it's nice to have that. I forgot where I was going with this story...
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Jeremiah
2/3/2014 09:05:58 am
do you still love them both???
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