I'm on week 4 at the new job and, although, I'm still not really settled in it, things have gotten a little better. However, I did have a meltdown and totally wanted to quit a week ago because I was so homesick for Omaha and I just hated dragging myself there (it's not exactly a cheery place, especially to feel that). I'm definitely still looking for something else if this just doesn't pan out and I'm still not happy with it. I don't want to keep being bitter about this job so I'll point out the positives because I've been working on that...Well, the good news is that I'm starting to get a better feel for how I want to be as a worker when it comes to this job and my role as a "supervisor." The thing about me is that I always want to be myself at any job, I like my personality and I'm not going to dull that for anybody, anywhere. When I first started, everyone kept telling me to "PUT MY FOOT DOWN" and "SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO RAISE YOUR VOICE A LITTLE" but that's not me. I mean, not in that kind of tone, at least. I can put my foot down without it having to feel so aggressive and I could do better at asserting myself but that's on me. Also, I am aware that I speak softer but I don't need to raise my voice to get my point across. In fact, because I do speak quieter, the youth are kind of "forced" to listen more closely and carefully. I'm learning how to fulfill my role and getting to a point of how I think I want to run my shift. I think what makes it hard, also, is the staff. It's kind of clique like and that's annoying. I like more open environments but I understand every job can be like that and I can't let that get to me. Some of the stuff do just irk me so it doesn't help the situation at all when I already want to leave this job and never look back but, for the time being, I have to show my might and show them that they can't scare me away because when I leave it will be because I chose to and probably found something that better suits me but not because of ANY pressure from them.
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February 2020
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