I was talking with my sisters and the girls at work, as I always do, and we were talking about sex, as we always do. I told them my husband and I do not have a lot of sex. Yes, you read that right, minimal sex in our marriage. The reaction is always the same, so are the questions. They are all like, “Why not? But you’re MARRIED!!!”, “If I was married, he would get it all the time”, and “You’re a bad wife.” That never bothers me except for the fact that they don’t know my marriage. Marriage is not all about sex and despite it all, it’s not even hard being almost sexless. Now, I didn’t write this to be some journal post about bashing my husband and what goes on in our home but it does get frustrating sometimes. For me, it is so easy to not want sex and go months without it. Maybe if my husband showed me a little more effort then maybe I would want to put out more often. All I’m saying is that for once it would be so nice to come home to a clean apartment; laundry washed and folded, trash taken out, dishes washed and put away, bathroom cleaned, every room vacuumed… I am not saying he has to be Superman, I am not even Superwoman in getting all of that done but if he did an ounce of anything then he would be able to come home to that no matter how long or daunting of a task. I admit that sometimes I throw a “Single Ladies” party in my head, only in my head, sometimes when I feel tired of this marriage thing. I miss doing my own thing, when I wanted, not having to answer to anyone or worry about “permission” from that person. That is only my imagination running wildly and I am faced with reality. That may sound like I hate everything that is being with another human being but I love my marriage for what it is. No, not every day can be perfect because Lord knows how impatient I get but that doesn’t mean to give up on it because we hit a few bumps in the road. This has only been our first year of marriage and most people say the first five years are the hardest and I think to myself, “That is way too long.” However, if we can make it past those few years then I know we can make it through anything so here’s to marriage in all of its glory and gore! Sorry this journal got off on the wayside but I couldn’t write a post dedicated specifically to my sex life and a rant on my husband.
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February 2020
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