Every time I have gone out I would wish that I was able to drink the way I used to drink before (before the H. Pylori and ulcers). I was never a drinker in the sense that I would drink because I wanted to be drunk and act a fool. I didn't, and still don't, really even like to be tipsy. I used to like having a "buzz" but even that has become too much to handle. I wrote this post because I realized that I am kind of glad my body pretty much physically forced me to stop drinking (as much as I was at least). I was starting to be known as "The Drinker" and I didn't like that. I wasn't necessarily known for being a sloppy drunk or anything, and I am so happy for that, but still. I was always down to go to the bar when I should have been putting that money towards other things and giving my kidneys a break. Now, because of my stomach problems, I definitely have a lower tolerance (after working so hard to build up a high tolerance, but whatever). I can't even finish a whole mixed drink without feeling a buzz coming on or for fear of my stomach burning. I still do very much enjoy a beer but that's about as far as I get. Sometimes, I feel a little bit more "risky" and I'll try to down a mixed drink or take a few shots but then I always quickly regret it so I just stray away from it. It feels good to not be on that path anymore because now I don't have that fear of a hangover the next day and puking my brains out. I think more clearly, instead of those fuzzy, clouded thoughts from drinking. I just feel more better overall. It makes me happy to have made that cut back. I mean, I kind of had no choice, but things happen the way they should and this just happened to be one of those things for me in my life. I'm grateful.
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February 2020
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