I don't know if anyone has experienced this themselves, or at least have friends that complain about it, but MY friends that are 25 and up have all brought it up and I used to think it was funny and dramatic. So, the quarter century "crisis" is basically like a midlife type of crisis, only it occurs at the age of 25. No, the 25 year olds aren't going out and buying some new sports car or a motorcycle or changing their appearance dramatically, or whatever the hell happens when that takes place, but it's just more about becoming aware that they are only 5 years from 30 and they wonder what they're doing or what they have done so far and where they think they should be by the time they hit that mark. My friends have talked about it before and I just really didn't get it, but now, I think I have an idea. I only turned 23 yesterday, 2 years away from such a "melt down," and it really just kind of hit me. I started thinking like "who am I?, am I happy where I am? where am I heading in my life? what is there to do next?" I know it sounds ridiculous for those thoughts to have crossed my mind only hours after becoming 23 but I drove the whole way to work pondering such questions. I just feel like there's so much I want to do and I want to be so happy in life that I become jealous of my own self. Time stands still for no one and, although I feel I have accomplished a few things, there are other aspects of my life that I can't continue to ignore. I'm such a flighty person and I always give any major decision I have to make the runaround but I can't keep running forever, I can't keep hiding forever. I have made so much progress in the past year that I can't even believe I have come this far and there's still more to come. I have learned so much about myself and have gotten rid of some of the unnecessary people out of my life that things are beginning to look up just a bit. I finally tended to my mental health and I am unapologetic about it. The medication has helped me tremendously and therapy has definitely been great for me. I don't know, I may only be in my early twenties still, but I don't feel "young." I have dreams of succeeding and being the best version of myself that I can be and even though it seems that CHANGE is happening slowly, I have to remember that the journey is progress in itself and no one can walk in my shoes but ME.
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February 2020
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