It is so easy to get caught up in the past. It is so effortlessly easy because our past is what we know, it's our comfort zone, whether it is good or bad. We tend to base most of our present actions on our behaviors from the past. Maybe this isn't the case for everyone, but for me, it is definitely. I find myself repeating so many things I did years ago and I catch myself doing them. I guess you could say I have patterns. What makes that difficult is that I become predictable, which is annoying because the world will always know my next move. I want to change and I say it often but I am changing, slowly, but there is some progress. I'll be damned if I stay stuck in the past as everyone else moves forward into the future. One thing I constantly noticed about myself was the same string of questions I have countlessly asked my exes in my past relationships. I even continue to ask those same damn questions in my marriage with my husband. I'm not really too much in the mood to talk about those questions but it's frustrating. I need to work on myself, I have to. If I don't, I will just stay caught up in this vicious cycle I've thrown myself into.
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Winthrop
1/15/2015 11:38:22 am
The best feeling in the world is when you can look bac and see that changes you have made. It's a major dose of good doings. The thing that every guy hates is when they have to pay for what other guys have done. One thing I learned in my marriage is that when I felt down, I tried to make my wife happy. When I did, I felt better just seeing and knowing I had some sort of meaning in life. If I could give you any advice about changing, it would be this; include and invite your husband into the changing process. 1, you won't feel alone Bc no other person will love you like him. 2, it opens up to more communication. Love your posts! Sorry I haven't commented in a while, but I still read them.
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Breigh
1/18/2015 06:02:17 pm
You make it sound easy but you've been married before. Marriage is work, more work than I think I am ready for at times. I don't know anymore. Maybe we will make it, maybe we won't. It's okay that you haven't commented in awhile, most people don't, if I haven't lost any readers. I'm happy to know you do read, though.
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