I don't really understand why but lately I have just been paranoid and thinking someone is following and watching me. It's funny right? I know nobody is after me, I'm nothing amazing. They would bring my ass back in a heart beat. I keep looking around whenever I go out somewhere, thinking in my mind that I'm a really cool spy in the movies or something. At night, I'm even scared of my shadow. I look out of the corner of my eye and turn around really quickly, clutching my taser in my pocket. The people that see me must think I'm crazy. Last night I had a dream that these guys in a white van tried to kidnap me and some friends and I ended up running around all over town just to get away so they wouldn't find me again. I attribute all of this paranoia to my heavy T.V. watching of Law & Order and NCIS...I know they are just shows but I mean, that shit can really happen and that scares me because unlike where they figure out what happened and close the close, in real life, shit never really gets solved. If the police found my body in assaulted and beaten to death with questionable drugs in my system, I would be the next cold case with no follow up. I don't know what I'm going to do about my paranoia but I refuse to give up watching my two favorite shows!!!
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February 2020
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