I was once talking with this guy and it was the best conversation I had had in awhile. We talked about real eye-opening stuff and he told me I was easy to talk to, but then he told me I can't go around giving all those pieces of myself to just anyone. I like to talk, sometimes it's just nice to want to talk about myself when everyone I come into contact wants to tell me their life stories. I don't have an issue with that because that is one of the reasons why I am getting into the field of being a therapist because I give off that vibe of people being comfortable enough to want to open up to me, but that's another story. What the guy was saying was that I can't give everyone that time of day because they might construe it to be something else. It made so much sense to me. I realized that I don't want everyone to know me on that kind of level. That just makes it easier for others to use whatever I tell them against me, no matter what it may be. It is also just so exhausting always opening up to people. I get aught up in the moment and I get stuck. It's fun and exciting at first because everything is so new but then you realize that that person was a waste of time and you're tired of sharing pieces of yourself with them. It's good to have secrets about yourself to yourself and I'm learning that. I feel like I've been more anti social lately and I like it like that because I am tired of everyone and everything around me. I just need time to recharge my batteries so I can start being selective about who I talk to you and give that time to because I am way too nice and not everyone in the world needs to be my friend. I have the people in my life that I need and they are the only ones who need to know anything. Good night, babes. I love you guys.
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February 2020
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