No, my graduation was not the big announcement. I know I keep lingering about saying what I have to say but my graduation was such a great celebration that I didn't want to "darken" the mood with it. Outside of that, there is just so much clouding my mind and I am trying to work through all of it. I have so much to figure out... I have to get past this...Well, this post is about my growth through my Instagram. I always talk about how I am able to look back over my blog posts and see my transition but I really took a look at my social media and I can see it there, too. When I first started my Instagram, I was still in this "wannabe party girl, wild child" phase and you can see it. Every other picture is me in a club or a bar, constantly throwing shots back, and just looking a hot mess. I liked my makeup and even some of my club wear but it all seems like such overkill as I look back. I like the more simple look I have now and I feel much more comfortable with my dreads growing long and when I step out in my oversized shirts and tight jeans. I feel more at peace with how I look, rather than overshadow it with a night on the town and being drunk all the time. Truth be told, I can't even keep up with my "old self" even if I tried. After 2 beers and 1 shot, I'm pretty much done. I'm not drunk or anything after that but I'm happy with just that. I can't even party how I used to. It takes so much effort to even want to get out of the house. As I scroll up my Instagram page now, I see how much I have grown. I still have a few wild things in there, I guess, but not to the degree that it was on. I try to have it a little more modest, even with some of those "racier" ones thrown in there. I don't feel or look as rowdy as I was before. Everything is starting to come full circle, even if I'm not where I want to be, I can't complain about the view from where I'm at. I am much more happier without some of the toxic people that were around previously. I'm still working on it but life is good now.
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About the AuthorI got the idea to create a blog in December 2014 on a random type of day.Writing has always been therapeutic; the only way I could communicate clearly, in actual words instead of struggling to unscramble the swirl of images, metaphors & analogies that is my thought process. In short, Archives
February 2020
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