Everyday, I burden myself with a sensory overload from carrying around my own shit and then somehow managing (absorbing, involving myself...) to take on everyone else's shit and that's my own fault (I know) for piling on the "extra" when I know their luggage isn't mine to hold onto. However, I'm learning that my genuine interest and belief in others doesn't have to equal to an automatic "negative" quality trait about myself. I know that I possess the natural ability to incite other people to follow their passion and become the best version of themselves that they've always envisioned and BE that and I pride myself on that so I know it's not supposed to be a bad trait that I have to "hide" away. I don't want to be a hypocrite and I'M not becoming my best self while I tell them to "just be yourself and the rest will follow." I have to be bold and valiant on this odyssey so I can be the torchbearer in my own pursuits, which I believe is rousing others in preparing for whatever purpose they have yet unearthed. I think that me reaching my personal goals and then regularly improving on them thereon will hold myself accountable while I expand on an already natural ability I've recognized within myself I've been safeguarding. I find myself in a tug-of-war with many people because of my own expectations I'd wrongfully placed on them and expecting them to act as I would. This often leads to an issue that was unintentionally created because they've misunderstood me and reacted from that standpoint. I frequently fail in many of those goals that's listed but my sheer determination (and stubbornness) to keep trying, even when I falter, is what keeps me going to not give up on myself... There's another post to go with this but I'm about to nap now before my shift tonight so I will handle that tomorrow! Goodnight, lovelies.
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February 2020
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