I remember when I was a virgin and I thought kissing was so sexy. When I learned how to French kiss, oh my goodness, I thought it was the best thing to ever happen to me!!! I was so good at it and such a tease about making out. I would just play into it, getting basically naked with my intense make-out sessions, and enjoying the moment of passion. Also, I'm sorry for such vivid detail but it is what it is... Back to what I was saying... I wouldn't have sex because I was still too scared and not ready but the kissing game was like my release. I loved kissing and the tongue war happening between my boyfriend and I. Then, once I lost my virginity, it was still one of my favorite things to do but then I started to get turned off by the idea of having someone else's saliva near my mouth weirded me out. Now, I do not like kissing anymore. It's this whole thing about having my eyes closed and feeling this warm, wet pressure on my lips just makes me feel uncomfortable. I can't really explain it but it's weird having gone from LOVING to make out and kiss someone to getting tense about it. I think about saliva being transported back and forth and I don't want to do it anymore. It is not a sexy thing to have those thoughts. When I close my eyes to kiss, it's like my mind takes me to another place and not a cozy, happy place but a place of stress. I like to do pecks, I guess, but full on making out is just not my thing anymore. Sorry this post was kind of random but I had to get it off my chest because it's annoying to have that conversation with people. How I end up discussing weird shit like that? I don't even know, but now you know. Well, good night readers. I love you.
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February 2020
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