This might not be "exciting" to most but it is for me, so... whatever. I recently had signed up for medical, dental, and vision through my employer. It seems small but it was actually a very big deal for me. 1) this is the first time I've had coverage through an employer. I had only ever had plans through the Marketplace. 2) Once I got all of my cards to prove I have coverage, it's also the first time MY NAME is the ONLY one on them... It was always my (ex) husband's name on there as a dependent and I was even under my boyfriend's coverage so I was the dependent. Either way, it's something major for me. I mean, I guess I have my own name on my car insurance, which I just remembered and I've had it like that for a little over a year now but, really, just seeing my name on multiple cards feels pretty amazing! I've never really had that, after having gotten married young, it was always our names on something together... I went to Walgreens to pick up my prescription and I whipped my medical card out so fast! It was also the pharmacy tech's first time to have just her name on everything, too, after 30 years! She said it felt pretty good and we really had the best time talking about it for a brief second. These are definitely small victories for us! I think back on when I had a conversation with my (ex) husband and I was bawling my eyes out and I told him I didn't know how to be without him. I meant that as in I had always been his wife and basically only known as such... He told me that I could do it and that I'll be fine. It kind of seems like a cheesy response but he was right. I couldn't stay stuck in those feelings. Especially when I was the one who chose to leave. It feels good to be here. I feel accomplished. I left but it was still a weird feeling to know that I was now breaking away from someone I'm legally attached to and had entered into young adulthood with... Like, does that make sense? I'm trying not to be corny writing this out but I know what I'm trying to say as I write it. Anyway, I do enjoy having that to myself because I've never had it until now; something with just me, for me.
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February 2020
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