My inner world is a continuous black, dark storm where the rain never stops and the thunder is constantly roaring. My heart is forever in a race with my mind, waiting for the rest of my body catch up. I feel like no matter where I go or what I do, there is always an ominous cloud looming over me, depressing me to the point of no return. I can't escape it and most days I'm not really sure if I want to. It seems like it's easier be mad/sad with the world,
that way if something bad happens I've already embraced it. My thoughts are always circling around in my head and I don't know how to pick anything out from them and that's when I get so frustrated with everything. I get so many headaches because I can't turn my mind off. Some days I feel like I'm slowly deteriorating inside, wasting away before everyone's eyes and my heart, although beating, is breaking into pieces by the minute. I'm aging way before my time and my own body won't support me any longer. One day there will only be one option: to lie down and let myself wither with the wind.
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About the AuthorI got the idea to create a blog in December 2014 on a random type of day.Writing has always been therapeutic; the only way I could communicate clearly, in actual words instead of struggling to unscramble the swirl of images, metaphors & analogies that is my thought process. In short, Archives
February 2020
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