I looked back at my old posts about me changing my life and I realized that this transformation started way back in October. This guy kept trying to tell me my change happened because of my husband's interference or girls I work with. I thought that was funny because not once did he ever stop to think it was because of just ME. There just had to be a 3rd party involved for me to go thru a transformation? I've been taking steps to remove negative energy out of my life and every day I am one step closer to this utopia I've made in mind for me to be the person I knew I could become. I look back at when I very first started this site in Dec of 2013 and I see just how far I've come since then. I was so depressed, suicidal, and just so down on myself. I thought every day was a curse for me to see the sun because I wanted so badly to not be here on earth anymore and I hated it. I can't lie, sometimes, I still just wish the earth would obliterate in one big flash because life gets the best of me and I become so overwhelmed but I am moving away from that toxic thinking day by day. If you think I've changed on you, I probably have, but instead of downing me about maybe you should encourage me in this journey because it has not been a walk in the park. I've disconnected from some of my old friends, I don't get wasted and party hard like I was, and I have been striving to be a better wife, sister, aunt... It is true about the saying of losing people along the way that don't understand your struggle, then they weren't meant to be there in the first place. I have nothing but love for the people I've come across but if I'm going to be a better me, some people just don't make the cut and they are only going to slow my progress down, especially the guy who just couldn't give me credit for ME changing for ME. Thanks, that showed me a lot. I'm definitely going into the right direction.
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About the AuthorI got the idea to create a blog in December 2014 on a random type of day.Writing has always been therapeutic; the only way I could communicate clearly, in actual words instead of struggling to unscramble the swirl of images, metaphors & analogies that is my thought process. In short, Archives
February 2020
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