I've been working on communicating more effectively with others. I have always tried to express myself but I was either at a loss for words or tried to sugar coat and beat around the bush for things so everyone else could feel comfortable. I can't do that anymore. I didn't feel good about not being able to really say what I had to say or maybe I didn't say it as straightforward as I could have and now I feel like I have finally found my voice and some are not happy with that. I don't care anymore. I can't "pretend" for the sake of others anymore. I just can't and I won't. I have been fighting to express myself for so long and I don't want to hold back again. I reached out to someone to even practice that honesty with because I had just lied to spare their feelings for so long and they didn't appreciate that. You would think they would be happy that I was finally telling them the truth but they wanted things to be how they were; in a fantasy world where I pretended to believe in what they wanted and not really putting in my input. I'm not doing that. I am still working on how to express myself without having to be as aggressive as I've been lately but that doesn't take away from my finally feeling HEARD. I've sat in the background for too long and I will NOT be silenced.
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February 2020
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