itI think I love this "new" person I'm becoming. I feel myself becoming more like an "adult", I guess is the word. I feel more peaceful and able to handle the world now. I just got back from this trip in Cali and it was perfect. Really, the best trip I have taken there so far. I felt more powerful, somehow, more in control of my thoughts and the words that I was speaking. I wasn't afraid to speak my mind and I definitely met some cool people along the way because of that. I don't know why this trip was different but I felt more free. I even met this comedian and Warren G down there. I can't put my feelings all on the trip, though. Maybe, before the trip, I was just too stressed to give a damn about what was going on around me but I felt so unbothered. I got into it with this guy and I was just so over it. I had told him earlier in the day that there would only be nice, simple conversation from me and I meant that. Although he kept trying to say nasty things to me and that he hated me, I still didn't resort to hurting his feelings or getting nasty back. I'm trying to turn over a new leaf, not that I was ever really the type to intentionally hurt someone's feelings. I am working on being more calm, yet more outspoken when the time calls for it. I need people to know that I am not some fragile, little flower. If you have read my blog, especially from my VERY FIRST POST back in 2013, you would clearly see that I can clearly reinvent myself if necessary. I can be very understanding and friendly to everyone but my last trip in California showed me that having a little bit of mean in me is alright. I am working on being more calm and down to earth but sometimes you just have to SMACK A BITCH UP!!! I'm kidding but you get the point. I am definitely happy with who I am becoming. I am evolving and I just know I will be bigger and better in time. No one can stop this progress, NO ONE.
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