I was talking to my friend and we were talking about how sometimes I will just kind of "disappear" in our conversations because I'll have this distant look in my eyes, so she'll wait for me to "come back" and then just go on with whatever we were talking about. I asked her what do I do that lets her know that I'm "back," and she said I'll just blink and start talking again because I'll go silent when I leave inside my mind. She asked me where do I go to when I start drifting off and it really got me thinking of how to explain the space of where I take myself when I start to disappear from the present moment. I told her it's like my mind is a 10 story house and when I go that deep inside myself, sometimes, it's like taking all those flights of stairs to the basement and that's where I go to think. I go that deep inside myself so I can tune out the world and be in this quiet place. The basement of my mind is where I go when I start to fade away during conversations. That distant look is me taking that journey down the stairs and reaching my destination to do some true soul searching. I'm not always in the basement, though, but that's how I describe my thought process. It's a lot like being in a big house filled with various, distracting things and some of it is just there for clutter, but the basement is my true thoughts and my true self. I hope that makes sense. Goodnight, though. I love you.
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