We all like to believe that we're something greater than what we really are. The truth is, we're no better than our ancestors of the past. Yes, we have come a long ways from the stone ages and advances in medicine have made it possible to see 200 birthdays, or something like that, but we are just sad, pathetic humans that struggle to get thru in life on a day to day basis... at least that's what I am. I am one confused individual. I don't know what I'm doing, I have no fucking idea where I'm going, I don't have any kind of answer to anything at all. I've found, however, that life is one big snowball of misery and disappointment. I've done nothing of importance outside of my marriage, and even then I question, "Was I really ready?","Will this last?". I thought I could add the military to my metaphorical check list but then I realized I even failed at that, I never even made it to the "REAL" Army. Outside of dancing, I've done nothing cool or successful. I wasted my time with the military when I could have just now finished with my first year of college. I don't even have any dreams or goals anymore. They're all dead, they burned out a long time ago, along with any hope of ambition of finding them.
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About the AuthorI got the idea to create a blog in December 2014 on a random type of day.Writing has always been therapeutic; the only way I could communicate clearly, in actual words instead of struggling to unscramble the swirl of images, metaphors & analogies that is my thought process. In short, Archives
February 2020
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