So, about a week ago, I was TERRIBLY UPSET and just having a meltdown and I wrote about it on here. Well, that meltdown has passed (thank God) and literally in the week's time, things have done a 180, not quite a full 360 (I'm waiting on that), but I'm grateful nonetheless. I think I might just be buzzing from the fact that I got a new job! I still have a few things to do before I'm officially in the position but I accepted the job offer and got the paperwork started yesterday to get the ball rolling. Side note: it is NOT the job that I interviewed for internally at my current job. Someone else with more experience and all that was required got that job but I'm happy for whoever it was offered to and now my path has led me to something else that I'm over the moon about! However, with my excitement in this new job, I must admit that I am still struggling with these constant back and forth feelings (as I always am) and I can feel it inside. It's this turmoil wreaking havoc and my mind has still been fuzzy and my stomach in knots. I am feeling plagued between these constant "What If?" scenarios and if everything I thought was the right move has really stemmed from the wrong move somewhere along and I'm trying to play catch up with what can either be right or a loop of complete wrongs that seem okay because it's all a part of a downfall I'm not aware of yet. Does that make sense? I know I have to be the one to know what is right or wrong for my life but I'm annoyed that I can't seem to shake it off as easily as others. I'll just keep floating on the high that, so far, I think I finally found a place where I can lay roots for a career in my field.
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February 2020
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