What scares me about having sex with a new partner is the fear that they will fucking suck at it. You build up this hype and anticipation that they will hopefully give you mind blowing sex that will keep you two connected forever (or for the moment) and you can't fucking wait to see what happens... Then, the time comes for sex to take place and instead of this "amazing sex" you've dreamt of, you find out that they were just disappointing and a waste of time and penetration. Now, you dread the next time any kind of sexual encounter might occur because all you keep thinking about is that one time he ruined it instead of making your dreams come true. I think about this one time I was with this guy and that's exactly what happened. One, I didn't like that he was WAY TOO EAGER to try to fuck me. It was not romantic and it was like he was a horny, little teenager again which turned me off. I tried to skip past that and thought it would get better from that awkward point. It didn't. I didn't like any of it. I don't want to get into too much detail but I did not care for that at all... He didn't have the biggest penis but size doesn't matter to me if you know how to work it and I was not into that either. He wanted to play this game about teasing me and making it a sexy, sexual game but it really ended up just annoying me. I think back on that sometimes and I'm just so irritated. This was a guy who talked up his sex game and I thought I would be seeing stars. He blew it the moment he tried to rush onto me like some dog trying to hump a leg and then I wasn't even satisfied with the main event. I need to stop this rant because now I keep thinking about it and I am still not pleased!
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February 2020
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