Since I was on a roll with my last post about one of my shitty ex's, I thought I'd share some more craziness about my life and past relationships... So, after my breakup with Timmy, I met this other guy, Gabe. He was so sweet and loving. We dated for a week and already talked about getting married at the court house. We were crazy, I know. I started to notice some similar behaviors between him and Tim, though, and I just had to reevaluate some things. He was super possessive, literally waited in the bathroom with me while I peed once, and he would just want to be up under me 24/7. I thought I wanted a boyfriend who was all about me, all the time but I had that with Timmy, and I was terrified of that kind of attention. Gabe was so clingy and smothering. I was suffocating in that relationship, oh my gosh. I just couldn't handle it. He actually choked me up in front of the mirror one time because he thought we were so cute together and was trying to hold me close. It was horrible. I remember tears coming down my face and this fuzzy feeling in my body. He was laughing and saying something I couldn't make out. OH. HELL. NO. I was not dealing with this fool. He never hurt me or put his hands on me before and never did it again after that but I was sick of him and that was not something you do to express your "love" to someone. I ended up meeting some other guy, thru Facebook, and I basically left Gabe for him and that guy ended up being my husband. I don't think my husband knows that he saved me. The last 2 relationships were SHIT and I don't know where I would have ended up if I had not realized I could do better than them. I am happy that my husband came along and showed me that love doesn't mean putting your hands on the other person to show your affection. I had also debated if I would ever share these 2 stories with my readers for a LONG time because it seemed too personal but I am not afraid anymore. It's a part of my past now and those experiences helped me to grow.
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February 2020
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