I'm recalling this conversation I had with someone, I can't remember who, maybe it was my husband? Anyways, I told them how much I had changed and that I can tell through my pictures, definitely through my pictures that I was a different person than I was even last year. In my old pictures, I'm with my best friends, Desiree and Sienna, and we're at this old club, Capitol, and we are taking our drunken selfies and images of us with shots in our hands are all over my gallery. I thought I was a true party girl and I was, as told by those pictures and my social media. I admit that I did have fun and truly had a "live it up" experience, as far as clubs and drinking go but I had to change my ways. I can even see in the way I dressed how much I have changed from now until then. With the makeup, the weave, the "sexy" club dresses, so many drunken nights. I became a part of the "party crowd" and I was constantly getting invited out to events. I was always out, in somebody's club, posted up at the bar, getting wasted. I thought I could get through life, just one party at a time, but I forgot who I was. I was a wife and I let my husband and our marriage slip through the cracks. My best friends were single so they obviously didn't understand my situation. I was a mess. I can't lie and front like it was all bad, I definitely had my share of memorable moments but now I look forward to more moments to be made, instead of being stuck in the past. I am STILL tying up lose ends from my past, some that might not ever be worked out but even if I have to do it alone, I will be a better person for myself. I have to keep trying.
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February 2020
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