So, I stopped taking my medication for 2 weeks. It was definitely NOT intentional but I was waiting for my insurance to go through so I could finally order it again. The first time I got my prescription filled, without insurance at the time, it cost close to $200!!!! With a little finagling with an Rx savings card and the pharmacy techs helping out, we got the price down to around $110. That's still a lot but it was at least SOMETHING at the time. Anyways, that's just the background of why I have "skipped" out for 2 weeks. The first week wasn't so bad, it was still in my system, and I felt balanced still. However, as the second week began approaching, I noticed a subtle change in my behavior and mentality but then it became more transparent that I was "reverting" back to my "old" self. My old self wasn't so bad but I just didn't know how to dig myself back out of the hole that I had crawled in as a safety zone. I'm not using the medication as some be-all-end-all but I am not ashamed of having that extra push to help me get my mind in the right gear. I didn't feel TERRIBLE within those 2 weeks but it was like I was trapped in this fog and it was clouding my thoughts again. I started to withdraw again and I didn't like that feeling. Well, I am happy to say that I have refilled my prescription, and thanks to insurance, it only cost me $3 this time! My medication is not some crutch, it is there as a guide to help me better manage those feelings and with the assistance of my own free will, I am unstoppable. I am ready to take on the world again.
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February 2020
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