The topic I chose to write about was to answer the question of: "Do you think you are important and worthy of love and affection?". To simply put it: NO. Well, I mean, I didn't used to think so and it still crosses my mind every now and then. When I say I felt so down on myself and I thought I wasn't worth anything to anyone, I truly mean it. I thought I was better off being everyone's play toy and I didn't deserve anything for myself. I was so down and out and I just wanted the pain to go away. Sex was my outlet, so no, I didn't think I was worthy of love and affection nor important and significant. Now, today, I think differently. I am not the best person, and I will always have regrets and doubts about who I was, but that will always be a part of me. I can only accept that and move on, and be a better person for my future. I am worthy. I am important and deserving of both love and affection. I will forever have self-doubts and regrets but who doesn't? I wrote about not wanting to be in anyone's shadow and being more expressive, but I'm not the exception. I can't allow myself to be a lingering shadow (a figurative shadow) that holds me back in life. I am more than my mistakes, I'm a dreamer and I am worth it.
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Rodney
12/17/2014 08:42:03 pm
AWESOME!!!!!
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Darryl
12/29/2014 12:25:24 pm
Absolutely amazing
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