I think the most damning moment came for myself, to myself, was writing in response to a prompt in my gratitude journal prompt. The prompt was "write a list of 10 qualities that you like about yourself." That was it, just 10!!! It was only 10 and you'd think you would just be bursting at the seams with how many things that you LOVE (not just "like") about yourself but I was stumped! I did eventually scrounge up a list that STILL took me awhile and I finished up the list and closed up my notebook. I finally reread it over today and it made me smile but it also brought some sadness because it felt like such a defeat when I wrote it originally. It did make me realize, however, that I need to work on kinder with myself. I'm constantly making all these excuses for others and wanting to see the good in them but when it comes to someone saying something negative about me, or casting me in a bad light, then I run with it and that's when it becomes harder for me to find the more positive qualities I do like about myself and to listen to my own voice. On my list, I actually did list a quality kind of hinting at what I just mentioned, and it was that I am able to reinvent myself time and time again. I am always working to improve and evolve and, as documented in my own blogs, I don't ALWAYS hit the nail on the head with what I envision but I keep going! I also wrote that I have a big, open, and forgiving heart and that I'm intelligent and inquisitive about the world and THOSE qualities will continue to get me far. I plan on doing the same list in a few months and my hope is that it won't take me dreaded hours to get it done. In fact, I am going to up it to 20 qualities and it's really for my own sake and joy but I'm okay with that. I do challenge my readers, or whoever, whatever, to complete the task of writing a top 10 list of the qualities YOU like about YOURSELF. I love you.
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